Saturday, October 2, 2010

So I did this really absent minded thing. I know, big surprise. What's worse is I did it in front of my 16 year old son. Geez. I mentioned earlier that often my body, and more often my mouth gets going faster than my mind can catch up and I guess this is what happened here. We were running through Crown Burgers drive up to pick up some lunch and I am talking a mile a minute about I don't know what and all of a sudden my son says "Mom, don't we need to order first?" I look around and I have passed right by the menu board and pulled up behind the car at the window. Oh my Lord! I look frantically behind me and there is a line of cars, I can't back up. Now what? I'll tell you what. I have to tell the lady at the window that, oh sorry, I forgot to order at the menu board like an idiot and I have to pull through and start over. Then she can tell everyone in the back there and they can have a good laugh and then they can re-live the whole thing when I come back through and say "Hi, it's me again!" My son is dying. He is laughing and embarrassed all at the same time, and so am I. Because, here is the good news. Although there is still a little part of me that right off the bat, feels just a little bit humiliated, there is a larger percentage of me that thinks this is incredibly funny and par for the course for me. I know many of you who know me will agree. What is fabulous about getting older is that you get to let go of that awful, insecure, self consciousness that haunts us in our youth and keeps us from enjoying every silly moment of our lives because we are so afraid of what everyone else might think of us and we are so easily embarrassed that every little thing sends us into high drama. This part of growing older is fantastic! At the same time, it would be very comforting if there if anyone that has done this same thing, could let me know, so I don't feel like I'm the only one. Because no matter how old you are, no one wants to be the ONLY one. Later.